METANOIA: TURNING TOWARD THE LIGHT
What began as a 27,000+ word artist statement in 2016 that mined my family's past through our shared addictions eventually morphed into a sculptural installation, performance piece, and virtual reality memoir called METANOIA. Staged in a self-help meeting, the presentation centered around a box-set containing a neon sign depicting my mom's name, a blown glass Makers Mark bottle produced from memory with Jason Christian, one cassette tape, a graphic novel made in collaboration with Cold Cube Press, and a Japanese edition of Blade Runner in a VHS format. From a metal folding chair placed within environmental set pieces, I performed an impromptu monologue about the past, present, and future while interacting with a virtual reality re-creation of my childhood kitchen generated by Grant Kirkpatrick and Fritz Rodriguez.
In this work, I revealed aspects of myself as naked as I could. All veils lifted and what happened during the performance was more akin to a seance or occult ritual than anything else. A spell was cast that night — layer upon layer of negative feedback rolling off every person in the room. It wasn't art; it was real. For the first time, I felt a sense of freedom I had never known. Where once a demon lived in our house, clinging to our every fear, it now had no purchase.