METANOIA is an autobiographical body of work created from 2016-2018 with my mother, sister, and a team of dedicated collaborators. This collection of media began as a 27,000+ word artist statement in 2016 that mined my family's past, our shared addictions, and what it means to make art in a world gone insane. Through many diversions, it eventually morphed into a sculptural installation, performance piece, and virtual reality memoir.
Staged in a self-help meeting, this is the presentation of my story on the day I turn 41 and 7 years sober. These are the events that led me to be me, this current version of myself. These are the experiences that propelled me out of the black hole of alcoholism into cycles of searching, belief, and transcendence while knowing these vital concepts are impossible to define.
The exhibition centers around a box-set containing a neon sign depicting my mom's name, a blown glass Makers Mark bottle produced from memory with Jason Christian, one transparent red mixtape, a graphic novel made in collaboration with Cold Cube Press, and a Japanese edition of Blade Runner in a VHS format. From a metal folding chair placed within environmental set pieces, I will perform an impromptu monologue about the past, present, and future while engaging for the first time with a virtual reality re-creation of my childhood kitchen generated by Grant Kirkpatrick and Fritz Rodriguez.
With this body of work: I want to tell a story, banish a kind of lingering evil, reveal aspects of myself as naked as I can, and create a place where others might see things as they possibly never have before. While this cathartic process could be fulfilling, it indeed could be a disaster, maybe a failure full of possibilities — the place I think real creativity stems from, exploding in all directions with unknown and transformative powers.
Ruth Keating Lockwood curated METANOIA with the generous support of Robert Yoder from SEASON for a residency at Oxbow taking place January 27-February 17, 2018. The series opens on Saturday, February 3 from 6:00-9:00 pm with a performance from 8:00-9:00 pm and continues through Saturday, February 17 by appointment only.